PASSION....

pas·sion -any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate. a strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything. the object of such a fondness or desire


So, all I do now is think about things I can write about. I have ALOT of thoughts in this unique head of mine, and every one out of 10 I think to myself...."im going to write about that!!". So, on Sunday morning after asking everyone I knew(it seemed like) if they wanted to accompany me to The San Francisco 49er football game with my fellow season ticket holders, i had a great idea.....lets ask my Aunt Kim. Well I call her at 7 am, wake her up, and ask "hi aunt Kim, wanna go to the Niner game?" at 1st she declines, and after calling another couple of people I get a voicemail...."Joshua Shane(shes THE ONLY person I let call me that) I wanna go, ill be ready in 30 mins". im glad someone has decided they want to go!!! My aunt has been going through some things lately, so Im on a mission to show her a good time. The reason why we leave sooooo early for Niner games is to TAILGATE. If you have never tailgated before......you are truly missing out, its half the fun at niner games, whether its, all of us comparing our fantasy teams or R.R getting hammered and pissing A.R off, or A.R making that EXCELLENT tri-tip, or D.C trying to bang someone in whoevers truck he has the keys to, or me showing off my arm that was once something good(i still can sling it, but not like before) or A.R calling R.S asking "where you guys at ?" and even though we're just hitting the causeway.R.S responding "Vacaville"...there is NO better moments...............
..Tailgating is a truly a source of amusement for a fall like sunday morning/afternoon in the city by the bay which only a few lucky people get to expierence. One of these people was my aunt Kim, and the one thing she said to me that stuck out and which is the precursor for this blog...."Josh, im having such a great time, I haven't expierenced PASSION for a long time, and all I see here is PASSION...its so cool!!" So this comment is the inspiration for this Blog...I thought instantly to myself, I have so passion in me right now I HAVE to write about PASSION and what im Passionate about!!! I never realized how much PASSION I had until this comment. If you've read my other blogs you realize that PASSION is something that oozes out of my pores. The San Francisco 49ers, Notre Dame Football ,The Sopranos,Twin Peaks,Pearl Jam, L.L,The mafia, The Rat Pack, Santa Cruz, Politics, the list goes on and on.....How could I have never realized, that Im a very passionate soul??? PASSION is good, it something that more and more people should realize they have and concentrate on that!!! Am, I realizing this for the 1st time because of everything I have been through this year?? Is PASSION my downfall??? These are questions I have to answer, so people can share this PASSION with me!!! You know what a feeling it is for me, when I talk to someone random, and they are just as passionate as I am about say....Twin Peaks??? Is knowledge PASSION?? Am I finally finding myself and who I truly am? People always say to me...."I hate Pearl Jam...because of you" Well, you know what I hold that as a compliment, im NOT here to please everyone else, Im here to please me, now, i'll always be there for my friends and family...Always!!! But right now its MY TIME, I think its about that time, that I need to recognize this, and cherish it!!! Theres one person who has seen me at my Most Passionate....she knows who she is....me...realizing how passionate I am, and giving my all to that particular PASSION..watch out everyone......thats a combo that can only be a good thing......Aunt Kim-til the day I leave this world, I will always remember our Sunday together and how you made me realize my PASSIONS...thank you, and I LOVE YOU with all my heart!!!

PASSION=
San Francisco 49er football
Notre Dame FOOTBALL
JFK
La Cosa Nostra
WW2
Democrats
Anthony,Paulie, Chrissy, Silvio,
Frank,Dean and Sammy
Ed, Jeff, Stone,Mike and Matt
Laura Palmer
sitting in the ocean on a board looking up at the sky wondering "what the fuck did I do wrong????"
and
hating Terry Mulholland
.........


" A strong passion for any object will ensure success , for the desire of the end will point out the means" Thoreau


Now Girl I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
Maybe I should do the same (maybe I should do the same)
The funny thing about that is I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you baby
And now, it's all just a shame That I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it
Don't wanna talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
I can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair


Justin Timberlake-"What goes around Comes around"-"Future sex/Love sounds"



Im having a Passionate sentimental night!!! This is a good song, about angst from a VERY talented crooner. It reminds me of wondering about walls and Scarlett Johanson-she mad hot!!!!

BLUEHAIRS......(Thanks K.B)

I fucking despise BLUEHAIRS......for some of you who might not know what a BLUEHAIR is.....its a person that's hair is so GRAY it turns BLUE.(Marge Simpson would not quailfy). BLUEHAIRS are usually so pissed at the world for living there 85 or so years, that they terrorize all us youngfolk.... Theres no more such thing of the nice little old granny, no because they call me on the phone and TERRORIZE me!!!!! My grandfather is wealthy man, but yes..he is a BLUEHAIR. One of the many reasons he is wealthy is because they DONT spend a fucking dime!!!!!!!! This is a true story im about to tell you, NO, its NOT just a poor attempt at humor, its 100% true!!!! So, when my grandfather started hitting every car that drove near him(and just give them the cash in his pocket or the gold rolex on his wrist to avoid getting his precious drivers license taken away), we decided as a family that it was time to start driving grandpa around. Now I dreaded the day it was MY turn.(my grandfather is a former drill sgt. in the marines and if you dont wake up at 6 am.... the day is a waste!!!!) So, per his routine.... say a rosary at the catholic church...(on the way all he did was curse at the drivers who got near us..."god damn cocksuckers dont know how to drive, I was in the marines for 22 years, did I ever tell you that????"...."those japanese they were some good fighters") so, after feeling a little blasphemous walking into church to say my rosary for my grandmother(who by the way was a 5'8 white woman who was the most charming quiet woman you could ever meet, who also married 14 years her elder a 5'4 BROWN mexican man who was the most obnoxious, loud man, you could ever meet......they kinda reminded me of Paula Abdul "Opposites Attract")....i couldnt help but think WOW he can say all those words, and then be the most humble human being as soon as he steps into his holiness' house...it a sight to be seen....so, we say our rosary, i bless myself for all the sins i was about to commit that week, and we head on over to Mcd's...."Skip's" hangout....When we get in all the other retired BLUEHAIRS are sitting in the corner mesmerized by whos coming in next....of course they all see my grandpa....well my grandfather is a popular man, he just has "IT" whatever "IT" is...I dont know....but he has "IT"...he says his greetings and says to me..........."come on, I have to get my coffee"...now at this point I had to come to a certain stature where I could afford to buy my grandfathers coffee.... even though I KNOW he had a couple hundreds in his pocket, I offer....."what the fuck did you just say???" NO.im buying..."ok, ok grandpa" as we start to order he tells me the life story of the Mcdonalds employee and how she works 3 jobs, and how well I have it and he says "tell the lovely woman what you want" so, I order, then of course he orders his coffee...well, it comes out to about $5.00.....well in all his infinite wisdom, about LBJ and The Germans, one thing my grandfather excels in is MATH. "No thats not right" he tells the lovely mcd's employee who can barely speak english...."You charged me 85 cents for my coffee, im a retired military man who happens to be a senior citizen(a BLUEHAIR) why are you NOT giving that cup of coffee for the senior discount????????" With a dumbfounded look on her face, she says "oh, im sorry Skip" .well of course he just cant let it go....(this is someone he obviously knew and felt bad for, because she was such a hardworker) I turn to him and say "grandpa, ill give you the 30 cents, jesus"......." dont you ever say that word around me".....I wasnt going to fight the battle!!!!!!! so, after coffeegate, we go sit down at the BLUEHAIR table and i am truly BORED, whether it was hearing about the hip replacement surgery or the way the D.A.V wasnt giving them enough money, I had enough, so I just start laughing, because i have realized all of them have BLUEHAIR!!!!!!! so ,next time you see a BLUEHAIR dont feel sorry for them, theyve lived a good life.just be thankful your NOT that old yet!!!!!!! p.s to all my friends if I ever get this old(I wont) please just kill me then.......thank you......p.p.s...to all you BLUEHAIRS that read this(I dont have to worry-you probably think a "keyboard" is a board you put each and every one of your 35 keys you own on it.....) Be nice....and play a video game once in awhile.... be hip-dont worry about your hip....thank you .......sincerely.and quit calling me on the phone and complain because YOU cant hear or decipher what im saying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nature has its own religion
Gospel from the land
Father ruled by long divisionYoung men they pretend
Old men comprehend

And the sky breaks at dawn
Shedding light upon this town
They'll all come around'
Cause the man of the hour
Is taking his final bow
Goodbye for now

And the road
The old man paved
The broken seams
Along the way
The rusted signs
Left just for me


He was guiding me
Love, his own way
Now the man of the hour
Is taking his final bow
As the curtain comes down
I feel that this is just goodbye for now


"Man of the Hour"-Pearl Jam-"Big Fish" Soundtrack


This is truly one of the most eclectic songs your ever going to have the pleasure of listening to. It seems truly fitting for the post I just wrote. My grandfather (BLUEHAIR) will always be my "Man of the Hour"..M.D at my funeral I want you to play this song......